October 15 is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day.
I lost my first child in 2017.
I felt incredibly alone at that time. Not only did I lose my baby, I also lost an entire lifetime. It is an indescribable grief.
I didn’t know then how many more precious babies in my own family would join mine. We have an entire generation of cousins waiting for us in heaven.
I still don’t understand why. I know I never will. But I do know that my Baby Rod’s legacy is powerful.
He came and left first & with that, those whom I love so dearly could feel just a little bit less alone when they experienced the same.
I would give anything for that entire generation of babies to have stayed here on earth with us. What a sweet reunion it will be in heaven. I can’t wait to meet all of them.
And my sweet baby, I carry you with me every single day. It is your love that transcends each message or gift I send to a grieving parent. Your life has a purpose far greater than I could ever truly know. You’ve expanded my heart & I am so grateful to be your mama.
I envision you having Grandpa wrapped around your finger, painting with Uncle Miles, sneaking pizza to Puggy & playing with all your cousins. I know you are in the best place possible & that’s the peace that keeps my hurting heart together. I love you & look forward to forever.
Lord, may your peace pour upon all parents carrying children the world does not see.
I totally understand you & feel your every emotion! I lost my first child in 1980 & then my second child in 1983. I know that my sons are looking out for each other til momma sees them again. But no matter how time passes by, I’m always wondering about the what-ifs, but fully comprehend that it wasn’t meant to be. I carry them in my heart!! 💙💙
Thank you for sharing. Today I remember your precious sons with you! 💕 A mother’s love knows no bounds!