October 15 is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day. I lost my first child in 2017. I felt incredibly alone at that time. Not only did I lose my baby, I also lost an entire lifetime. It is an indescribable grief. I didn’t know then how many more precious babies in my own family would … Continue reading Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day 2024
Five Years of Missing My First Baby
My first baby, Five years. I haven’t stopped longing for you. Never will. With each year, my longing is covered in more hope, peace and comfort. Hope in knowing that with each day, I am closer to seeing you. Peace in knowing you have forever life with Jesus and grandparents and cousins and your Uncle. … Continue reading Five Years of Missing My First Baby
Cold Air & My Brother in Heaven
I did something I haven’t done in a long while. I walked to my son’s school, instead of driving, to pick him up. I am not entirely sure what compelled me to walk. I hadn’t planned to. There was potential for rain (although we got home before it started). And I usually avoid rain at … Continue reading Cold Air & My Brother in Heaven
3 Years of Loving You
My dear baby, It’s been 3 years. After we lost you, I didn’t think I could survive another day. I felt so heartbroken, lost, confused, and alone. I didn’t get out of bed for a week, which was probably a good thing. My body needed to heal physically after all it had endured. Here we … Continue reading 3 Years of Loving You