My dear baby, It’s been 3 years. After we lost you, I didn’t think I could survive another day. I felt so heartbroken, lost, confused, and alone. I didn’t get out of bed for a week, which was probably a good thing. My body needed to heal physically after all it had endured. Here we … Continue reading 3 Years of Loving You
Navigating Doctor Appointments as an Adoptive Parent
My son and I had a much-needed eye appointment on Monday. At 4.5 years old, it was his first appointment, and he was super excited. Although the machinery was strange-looking and new to him, he was not afraid and in fact, asked Dr. Nguyen 1,000 questions along the way. With it being his first appointment, … Continue reading Navigating Doctor Appointments as an Adoptive Parent
At the Crossroad of Joy and Grief
The holidays, especially motherhood during the holidays, have shown me that joy and grief can truly coexist. There’s something about being gathered on the ground with my sons in a mess of paper and boxes, laughter and smiles filling the room, that tugged on my heart for the 4th little Rodriguez that should be here. … Continue reading At the Crossroad of Joy and Grief
The Miracle of Matthew: Pregnancy After Loss & A Miscarriage Scare
I didn't cry at first. Just sat there in disbelief that this could be happening again. I called for my husband, and the look in his eyes as he brought his hand to his face did me over. I began to sob. Quietly. Because the difference between our first experience and this one was that … Continue reading The Miracle of Matthew: Pregnancy After Loss & A Miscarriage Scare