The holidays, especially motherhood during the holidays, have shown me that joy and grief can truly coexist. There’s something about being gathered on the ground with my sons in a mess of paper and boxes, laughter and smiles filling the room, that tugged on my heart for the 4th little Rodriguez that should be here. … Continue reading At the Crossroad of Joy and Grief
The Miracle of Matthew: One Year Later
"We need to admit you tonight. Is there someone here with you?" "Wait, why?" "Because, mama, at this point, he's safer out of you than in you." Talk about shock! I struggled with high blood pressure the last month of my pregnancy. That day, I was running some very high readings, and my husband begged … Continue reading The Miracle of Matthew: One Year Later
Farewell Maternity Leave: This Mama’s Anxieties About Returning to Work
My last day of maternity leave is here! How?! It seems like yesterday we were driving home from the hospital while I stared at the 5 lbs of beautiful we just welcomed into the world. I'm spending today with all three of my boys. Smiling as my 3-year old sings to the baby. Going slightly … Continue reading Farewell Maternity Leave: This Mama’s Anxieties About Returning to Work
Thankful & Grateful
This time last year my heart was incredibly heavy as it was use to being. I was amidst a season of thanksgiving, and to be honest, I found it very hard to be thankful. Each holiday was another reminder of how empty our home felt, of our little baby in heaven. This time last year … Continue reading Thankful & Grateful